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[warthog9]

I'm beginning to wonder just how complicated the world really is trying to make things for me. So many things I want to go certain ways. Finally decide to commit to something, and get shot down... might be the right call but it still feels wrong

Things don't always turn out quite the way we expect or plan them to, we make compromises, we make adjustements as we go through life. We all know where we want to be, me.... I want to end up some day owning sea side property up in the New England area, over looking some channel where I can see boats coming and going on chilly winter nights, curled up on a couch with a fire crackling to my right, and someone wonderful curled up on the other end of the couch.

Wonder when I'll make it there...

Being graduated hasn't really sunk in yet, it's starting to but it's not there. Maybe it will start sinking in more on my drive to work tomorrow, I should be asleep right now, but my body isn't quite ready for it.

I should be absolutely overjoyed about graduating right? Why do I feel happy, but am looking around knowing I'm a bit sad? Am I looking at the future now and realzing what I thought was there isn't? Am I looking around and wondering where I lost track? I'm not sure what I think about the world right now, hopefully it will get better.

Next blog I'll give everyone the backstory to the job search, etc. Not horribly exciting but ::shrugs::worth telling, to sleep with me now, tomorrow I drive.